Help a girl out 🤷🏼‍♀️

Okay so I’m 15 nearly 16 and I’ve never had a proper boyfriend or even my first kiss. And with mostly girls I know and I once we like a boy we kinda obsess over them like we rly want them to like us etc...

but

when it comes to first kiss, I’ve always felt like I’ve wanted to be in control as if I’m almost guiding as to where I want to go so like if I wanted to start small and then build up or is this not the way to do it, should he be in control and I’m being led to where he wants to go??