Struggling with my body

I always felt like I had some body image issues like a mild case of dysmorphia but before I got pregnant I was finally feeling really good about myself. Then I got pregnant and I couldn’t wait to have a belly and show off that I’m having a baby.

Fast forward to 20 weeks and I feel so horrible about myself. My boobs are huge which I feel like just makes everything huge. I feel like I’ve lost muscle tone all over my body and everything is getting bigger and wider. I’ve gained about 9 pounds and the number on the scale now would have had me on a strict diet if I wasn’t pregnant. I am not doing that now because I know that’s not healthy but I am just not comfortable in my own skin. I’ve had trouble getting to the gym due to fatigue and cramping.

People always told me I’d be that pregnant person who was all belly and that’s definitely not the case. I love my baby more than anything and I will do anything so that he is healthy but I am having a really hard time adjusting to my new body and being okay with what I see in the mirror.