Is anybody else afraid to go to the pool by themselves??

I live in an apartment complex area and we have a pool. I’ve been wanting to so bad to take my 2 month old baby for a little dip in the pool. For some reason I’m like scared to go by myself.. idk if it’s insecurity issues or the thought of other people watching me or judging me. I JUST CANT GET PAST THIS ISSUE AND UTS DRIVING ME INSANE AND I FEEL BAD BECAUSE ITS STOPPING US FROM HAVING FUN. Anybody else have this problem or just me??