I really don’t know what’s wrong with me.

Like I’ve had something wrong since I was like 12 but I’ve always been to afraid to speak up about it. I’m 18 now. Used to be quite suicidal but not in the past year.

What I want to know is if there’s anything I can do about it like. I know I need to chill out but I don’t know how. Every time I try to relax I’m paranoid. like how does one relax ?????? And is this kinda thing curable ???

Here we go:

• constantly overthink absolutely everything.

• I get scared to talk to people in real life and over the phone (literally can’t make a call to someone I don’t know without having a panic attack)

• I find myself crying over nothing.

• sad most nights literally sit up until 5 in the morning for no real reason

• doubt everything and everyone

• paranoid that someone’s always watching me

• paranoid that my friends all secretly hate me and make fun of me behind my back

• can’t speak publicly or even present a small project

• I feel uncomfortable in public because I feel like everyone’s talking about me // staring at

Me

• get scared to ask people for help (doctors//shop assistants literally anyone )

• I binge eat a lot

• I feel useless almost all of the time

• I feel like a burden :/

SEND HELP PLSSSSSSS