Creamy discharge?

Ok so this was my first cycle tracking my cm and using opks my period is due in 6 days and everyday after af I got negatives on my opks and my cervix was always hard and high or mild way I always had fear of being none fertile after the depo fucked to my body and now I feel like maybe my fear is coming true I’ve been ttc for 3 years and nothing ever just late or early periods my discharge is always creamy white but like a thin creamy texture should I be worried or is this normal 😭 I just wanna be a mom so bad it sucks and feeling like you just can’t do something you’re meant to do really depresses me I feel like I failed as a woman 😔 I just pray my time comes and if this is gods way of saying I’m not ready then his will be done but it sucks 😔