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UPDATE!!!!: I love my husband, and I would never cheat. I do everything with consulting with my husband. But the emotional tie that I have with my friend is still there from years ago. I can’t help that, and I would never cut him off because of my feelings. I can still maintain a healthy lifestyle feeling like this. I was just in my feels 🤷‍♀️🤷‍♀️

UPDATE #2!!!: people are saying that if I loved my husband I wouldn’t love my friend. But they both came into my life at different times.

I don’t think I was clear when I said that I loved my husband, I love LOVE my husband. And I have told him that I love my friend, and HAVE told him that if I would have given him a chance when I was 15/16 that we would probably not be together. My husband understands, because he was in the same spot my friend was. There were 2 points in my life where I was just about to end it all. Before I met my friend and before I met my husband. HOW am I supposed to let go of something that made me hold on to life?