Paranoia

Hi I’m 15 and for a long time I always think everyone hates me for every decision I make and whenever I tell my friends that I think everyone hates me they just say “no they don’t hate you they love you!” But I don’t want to have to loose anyone therefore I don’t make new friends but I also feel sad when I see people hanging out having a blast because i want that. Either way I go people get hurt and I’ve been through enough drama this year to last me a lifetime so I’d love it if theres anyone that could relate to this somehow or help me out :/