Moving on and pregnant (please read)

so my situation is a whole lot I can't even think where to start back on 2015 I found out I was pregnant told the father he begged me to abort ( his Caucasian and I'm black) he tried smooth talking me all the way possible I preferred giving up for adoption he was against it he told me it's either we abort or keep it etc ... We kept the pregnancy a secrect but eventually at 4 months I had to tell my family cause I was scared and my family started to questions why I wasn't eating certain food, when I told my mum she was really upset but eventually accepted it mind u my boyfriend never came around with his family to acknowledge the pregnancy nor told his family... Long story short when I had my son he told his family they sent gift but never came to visit etc things between us was up and down but we managed to make it work ... Story short I started to noticed little change in my boyfriend in mid 2017 the way he spoke to me and he being over protective with his fone I questioned him many times if he was doing something he would lie straight to my face I didn't have any evidence so I stopped suspecting and focus on our family and my education.. our relationship was never perfect but we worked it out I lived with my family and he lived with his mom ..

so last year October I asked him where should we go trick or treat with our son he quickly declined straight away said he was going out with his friends I felt soo sad cause our child was looking forward to dress up and go out not to disappoint him I took him to his grand parents but unfortunately the weather was great we had to stay indoors, my boyfriend only saw us the following day he was acting SUPER weird like someone who was proud of something and heart just told me he was cheating ...on Christmas it was the same story he was busy etc,

This year my aunt died the only way he comforted me was sex Nd tell me it's ok no hug nothing,valentine's Day no gifts nothing, usually on April fools Day he calls to prank me nothing, my birthday no calls mind you he stopped calling (usually he used to call every night to say good night) in April I booked a hotel in his hometown he stayed with us (was not planned for him to stay) we had sex but during sex he calls me babe I was on top when he came he pulled me off and said "get off" and he went to bed that was it. I had enought i went to the bathroom had a shower and when I came back in the room he was already a sleep, I memorized his password since march and I was waiting for an opportunity to get his fone in my hands and I DID.

I FOUND EVERYTHING HE HAD BEEN CHEATING ON ME SINCE 2016 WITH ALL TYPES OF RANDOM WOMEN ALL FOREIGNERS OLDER OR YOUNG FUCKING THEM IN HIS BACKSEAT IN HIS CAR I REMEMBER LONG TIME AGO I ASKED HIM WHY HE KEPT REMOVING OUR SONS CAR SEAT NOW U KNEW WHY... HE WAS TEXTING ND FUCKING (ANAL POSITION) THIS RANDOM GIRL , WORST INSUTLTING ME TELLING HER IM OLD AND SHES A MILF WHEN THEY HAVE KIDS ETC I WAS SO HURT I CALLED MY MUM AND TOLD HER EVERYTHING I SENT THE CONVERSATION TO MY FONE SO I COULD READ EVERYTHING BEFORE I GO TO BED... I THEN RETURNED HIS FONE AND I JUST COULDN'T LOOK AT HIM THE SAME I CHOOSE TO SLEEP IN SAME BED WITH MY SON INSTEAD, THE FOLLOWING DAY I NEVER TOLD HIM OF WHAT I DISCOVERED BECAUSE I KNEW HE WOULD LIE AGAIN SO I JUST ACTED COOL AND COULDN'T WAIT TO GO HOME. I STOPPED ALL CONTACT TOO AND HE STARTED TO CALL ME BACK NON STOP I DIDNT ANSWER FEW WEEKS PASTED I FOUND OUT IM PREGNANT I KNEW I DIDNT WANT THE BABY I WHEN FOR A ABORTING IT WAS TOO LATE I WAS 4 MONTHS GONE ALREADY I HAD NO OTHER CHOICE BUT TO KEEP THE BABY ... HE DOESN'T KNOW IM PREGNANT AGAIN AND I HAVE NO INTENTION OF TELLING HIM I WANT TO FINISH MY EDUCATION AND HAVE BABY ABROAD AND DISAPPEAR WITH MY KIDS I DONT CARE IF HE DIES OR ROT HIS A MAN HOER THAT COULD HAVE INFECTED ME WITH A HIV BUT HE DIDN'T CARE ABOUT ME AS LONG HE COULD STILL HAVE ACCESS TO ME AND CONTINUE FUCKING HIS OUTDOOR HOERS HE WAS GOOD. I STOPPED MY EDUCATION FOR THIS BOY WHILE HE FINISHED HIS, HE HURT ME BEAT ME CALLED ME A NIGGER THE MOTHER OF HIS CHILD HE WOULD LIE TO HIS FAMILY THAT WE ARE NOT TOGETHER BUT HE CALL ME AND STAY HE WANTS OUR FAMILY TO WORK OUT I WASTED 7 YEARS OF MY LIFE FOR A DICK NOW I WOULDN'T GIVE HIM MY TIME I HAVE MOVED ON AND MY BABIES ARE COMING WITH ME LADIES PLEASE IF A MAN IS TREATING U LIKE SHIT AND NOT A GOOD FATHER TO HIS CHILDREN TAKE THEM AWAY AND RUN HE DOESN'T DESERVE TO BE CALLED A FATHER.