Would you ever cheat

Hi women, girls 😘

So I'm asking this because yes I have once cheated on my then boyfriend (I was 19 and he never found out, which is not an excuse but just how it went.)

And the situation at the time was that there was soo much pressure.. Everyone thought he was a great guy everyone kept telling me to give him some slack because he was working on his future. Everyone, especially my mom kept telling me I had to stay with this guy because he was a good guy, and he was..

But he wasn't great, he wasn't the one, and I wasn't in love.

He was extremely narrow-minded. He absolutely HATED gay people because in his oppinion they had thesame 'deformation' in their brains as child molestors. He was absolutely intolerant towards anyone who wore sweatpants or shorts (and at the time I loved wearing sweatpants apart from going to school, so I found that personally offencive) and he wasn't great in bed either.

So one day I meet this guy.. And I just feel him.. Like.. We'd never met.. We'd never even talked.. I kinda felt him coming into the room before I even saw him.. So I went over and talked to him.. And we talked almost every day during the next few weeks. And turns out he felt that too.. On one of these occasions we run into his girlfriend.. Which was SO akward to me.. And while she must have noticed (I mean I cannot hide anything when I'm with a certain person I like) she's totally cool with him walking me home... And when she just walked away he tried to kiss me.. Which was at that point absolutely strange to me because his girlfriend was JUST there.. So I turned him down and he dropped me off at home and that was that..

So we keep going on as friends (who have a crush on eachother, imo) and at one point he drives me home because I came back from a trip with school, I had my luggage and my mom refused to come and get me. She wanted me to drag my luggage on foot all the way home.. As I knew he had a car I called him and he wanted to take me home.. And we kissed in the car and he was rubbing me in my clothes and honestly it felt soo good...

So then I had to move out of our parental house because I was being abused which is a whole other story and I went to live on my own.

My boyfriend was almost never around because he found my appartement below his standards and wanted me to come to him all the time. So In my appartment I was always alone and lonely so the other guy offered to come by..

Well one thing led to another and we'd be more like friends with benefits. The sex was amazing mindblowing fireworks everytime like.. Wowww..

But he didn't want to make it a relationship.

By now I know why but it tore me up big time at the time.

One day I posted something about making my appartment ready for having romantic dinner with my boyfriend and he INSISTED to come over before my boyfriend. So tot think about this mater I guess he was just turned on about doing it behind our partner's backs..

When I finally had the guts to stand up against my friends and family (who at the time were convinced I was throwing away my life) and broke up with my boyfriend, I went to a party.. Just to get drunk & get laid.. Just once.. And he (mr friend with benefit) was right there at the bar.. And he wanted to take me home.. And they (both bartenders) were feeding me free drinks to make me stay longer.. (they weren't really strong because I wasn't really getting drunk considering the amount of drinks I had had) and I was getting really tired and I told them so.. so I ended up taking the other bartender to my place because he happened to have to pass my house to go to his. And he came in, and we shared a drink and then he kissed me (which was awful btw like kissing a laundry machine) and then he told me he was going home because he felt like he was taking advantage of me.. Which was very gentlemanny but that was exactly my plan... 🙄 😂

So later I get a call from mr friends with benefits.. He was a bit angry because he had seen the other guy's bike outside my house (did he actually drive by to check that? Possibly but his normal route would have passed my house as well) and assumed I had sex with him.. I didn't get what he was getting mad about like.. He was (not counting me) having 2 girlfriends, lieing to both, not letting me know anything when I was finally single.. (I had told him in a text and I didn't hear from him like for 2 weeks)

So this happened a while ago but it still gets on my mind from time to time.. Like I have a really good boyfriend now and I would never cheat on him.