Chemical Pregnancy/Miscarriage

I’ve started bleeding and the pain is agonizing. I’m 5 weeks and this is my 3rd loss 💔 I just want my rainbow 🌈 I was so hopeful this time 😔 I’m glad I didn’t tell my boyfriend yet, it’ll just break his heart more 😓

Any tips on how to get through another loss? This feels worse than last time, even though my HCG levels were lower this time around.