why are you single/in a relationship?

so if you are single, do you know why you are single? if you are in a relationship, do you know why are you in a relationship?

I know i’m single bc tbh i’m socially awkward. i pre judge a lot and think guys only want to have sex w me (which i’m right abt) so i don’t even try to engage with them. but also i’m awkward as hell so i’m bad at carrying conversations anyway. i also have never had a guy show interest in me like that. like i’ve had dudes in my dms. they don’t wanna be my friend they just wanna send me the heart eye emoji and expect something in return when i don’t even KNOW them. also i am 100% not confident enough to initiate anything and i’ve never had like a real crush crush before too.

also i’m entirely inexperienced. i have never even HELD HANDS with a boy. i’ve been to like negative 3rd base: looking at each other from across the room 💀💀 and i’m already 18 so i genuinely feel like it’s not ever gonna happen. and i used to be so curious about what it is about relationships that has people hurting themselves and crying themselves to sleep over etc. and i guess i still am a little curious but at this point idc anymore. like i can’t miss something i’ve never had and i’m done being curious bc it’s not ever gonna happen😂😂.

but yeah if you have an idea of it, why do you think you’re single/or in a relationship?

(ps i apologize for turning this into a whole rant but i had to get it off my mind 😂😂)