I’m having some anxiety so I just need to vent 😫

I live in a different country then where my family is. Where I live (now) it is expected for both spouses to work/contribute 50/50. It is frowned upon if one of the spouses doesn’t have a job, whereas where I lived before it wasn’t a big deal as long as you’re finically stable no one cares if one works or doesn’t work. Well in my situation I’ve had a hard time getting a job due to the language. I’ve been taking classes for two years but I’m still not fluent. This is really affecting me job wise/stressing me out because my in laws are always telling me how important it is for me to have a job. This is really affecting my self esteem too. I feel like a disappointment. My husband is really sweet and tells me he doesn’t mind, and that it doesn’t bother him but I still feel like a burden because of the pressure of the society I’m living in.

I just feel really bad about myself, like I’m a failure. Other things are stressing me out too but it’s too much to explain 😕