Depression

Lately I’ve been depressed. I’m not sure where it’s coming from. Maybe it’s the hormones that come with weight gain or just I’m confused about my life at the moment. Everyday seems to be a struggle to smile or to laugh. I could pretend but why fake it? I’ve started birth control for the first time in 7 years and I also got back on Wellbutrin. I’ve just really felt like complete shit for the last 2 weeks and out of control emotionally. Im afraid it’s going to affect my relationship, I’m finding it hard to hold conversation and be happy in the moment we get to spend time together. Yesterday I was a hot mess and today I was great until around 7pm. Who knows what tomorrow will bring. I just want to be happy again and my old self.