So I wasn't a big fan of crying because whenever I felt sad I try as hard as possible to look on the bright side or watch or do something funny to skip the part of crying and of course it doesn't always work it out but now like for a week I had this weird feeling like I felt empty like nothing had a meaning to me anymore and I never had that feeling before but it was awful because I didn't enjoy stuff that I used to enjoy and then the next week it I was crying at random times for like not a particular reason but Idk I do believe that was because I didn't let myself to feel certain things at certain moments and now is like my body telling me that I need it to cry and I need to let my emotions out so what I learned is that don't let anyone think of you as any less because you are crying for something that may be important to you and don't try to block your emotions because sooner or later they will come back