First appt didn’t go well 😭😭😭 update at the bottom!!!

So I had my first appointment yesterday. Before I get into it here’s a little backstory: I had an ectopic pregnancy last year 2/10/18 at 8weeks and my right Fallopian tube ruptured so I had to have surgery.

When we get to our appointment I’m nervous as hell!!! Given our history the first thing the Dr wants to do is do an ultrasound to make sure baby is in the right place.

We get to the ultrasound room I take my bottoms off and lay down on that crinkly paper, immediately rushed by the overwhelming feelings from my last ultrasound and I start crying. Hoping and praying for the best!!!

She inserts the probe and starts doing all these measurements completely quiet.

I already know something is wrong and I continue crying while my husband looks up at the ceiling trying to hold in the tears. She’s done, she removed the probe, she holds my knee and says she’s sorry!!!

My fears becoming reality 😭😭😭

She tells me the left side doesn’t look right and that I have bleeding inside. She tells me my 3 options. Surgery being at the top. I ask her what she thinks is the best route to go. And she says it’s surgery since I only have one Fallopian tube left so she can try to save it. I agree, so she sends me to the hospital to get prepped for surgery, thankfully I didn’t have anything to eat yesterday morning.

The surgery is done I wake up and I’m groggy....

The doctor comes to me and said everything went well, she tells me that it wasn’t clear if baby was in the Fallopian tube or so close to it that it was making it seem like it was in it. She left the baby in there!!!! 🙌🏽🙌🏽🙌🏽

She said I had a lot of adhesions(????) from past surgery’s and that she cleaned my uterine lining because it was so thick. I’m pretty much on bed rest until Monday.

I go back Monday morning to get an ultrasound done again. Depending on what she sees I may need surgery again.

I’m so thankful that my baby is still inside me this gives me so much hope!!! He’s trying, he wants to be here with us, just as much as we all want him!!!! God wants him here with us that’s why he’s still in there!!!

I’m praying and praying that my baby does fine, that all this has just been a huge nightmare, that Monday goes well!!! We could use all the prayers we can get!!!! We have so much faith we leave it all in his hands!!!! Please God you more then anyone know how bad we want our baby you know how much we desire this!!!!

Thank you for reading to the end I appreciate it so much!!! 💕

*****UPDATE: So we went to our appointment this morning. They did bloodwork to check HCG levels and an ultrasound. The dr didn’t really see much she did say that there wasn’t as much blood in my uterus and that that was a good sign!! She said she suctioned quite a bit. She also said I still had adhesions in my tube. I asked her if it was good or bad and she told me she wouldn’t know until she knows more. I kinda of feel like she’s not telling me everything. I have another ultrasound and bloodwork on Thursday.

But maybe no news is good news??

Either way I’m still on bed rest and praying for the best. I have so much faith that everything will be ok!!!! Thank you all for keeping us in your prayers I don’t know how else to thank all of you except to return the prayers for each and every one of you. 🙏🏽🙏🏽💕