can’t handle trying anymore

i am 36 and we have been trying for 8 months now. we have seen a fertility doc and have been diagnosed with unexplained fertility. we were planning to do <a href="https://glowing.com/glow-fertility-program">iui</a> next month but when i called yesterday to book it i was told the doctor is leaving town.

so now i need a new doc. and probably new tests. and have to start all over again.

i have kept it together every month when i get my period and keep hoping the next month is it. but i am at the point where i can’t handle the disappointment anymore. i feel so depressed. i see friends getting pregnant without trying. i feel like giving up.