I had my abortion August 1st 2019 and I found out I was pregnant weeks prior. I’m still dealing with the emotionally trauma today. When I found out I was pregnant i was a total MESS. . I Seen those double lines And saw my future flash before my eyes and said with tears. “ FUCK NO! I refuse to bring my baby in the world at this time!”. I knew in my heart that I personally was not ready. I want me and my husband to be in a amazing position to provide. It was emotional roller coaster for me and my husband, we newlyweds, we just got married March 19th 2019. so after my lease is up we’re going to get our apartment, plan, and gain more Finically Secuirty and ect...

So.. in the apartment I live in at the moment in the mist of this drama. My husband just shares a room with me I have 2 roommates right now at the moment. (changing the names for privacy purposes) my roommate who sleeps in the living room “Janet” I feel close to I’ve known for years, she’s getting on her feet, responsible. And my other roommates named is “Kelly”. Kelly is the roommate I bump heads with for the past year, fell more distance away from her since we had a big fall out and almost physically fought. Kelly the so called “feminist” doesn’t even know I’m married. I dont feel comfortable opening up to her compare to Janet because I don’t know Kelly as well to even consider her in my circle again since our fall out.

Okay so boom ! 🤰 found out I was have a abnormal pregnancy that was threatening. I didn’t want to tell Kelly but since I was having abortion , I was going to do the pill method and have everything leave my system at home if that didn’t work I would have had to be sent to a emergency room. Due to fear of something going wrong and her being home alone with me at a period of time, I wanted her to just know and understand what was going on.

When I told her

Remind you this is before this girl knew it was a abnormal pregnancy..

Me : Hey , this is so random but I’m pregnant! but I am having a abortion and I just want you to be aware of it, because god forbid anything can happen when everything passes through...

Me: * expecting a response of “if you need anything let me know or I’m here * she responds

Kelly: * sarcastically* “your pregnant? having a abortion?? what do you want me to say , congratulations!?! “

Me: * in my mind I wanted to slap the shit out of her and call her a f*cken b*tch but I calmly said* “💆🏾‍♀️ ....so...having a abortion isn’t something you just say CONGRATULATIONS ABOUT its a difficult decision, and I bet you every dime that I have, that you will not walk in a room with women that had a abortion and say that comment”

Kelly: well... all the women I grew up with kept there babies...

Me: .....that’s fine, and I’m the first woman your gonna meet that hasn’t...

Continues to ask me questions, remind you —her background of beliefs and religion is Christian and she’s celibate and That’s fine but I am not. I am a optimistic a open minded spiritual person. My husband is Christian but he doesn’t believe in celibacy or every biblical scripture.

Kelly: does your father know ?

Me: that’s a lot of questions, no he doesn’t and I don’t have to tell him, I can tell him whenever I’m ready.

Kelly: how many abortions have you had...

Me: ...this one...

Me: ....where do you stand if I may ask? Pro life or pro choice?

Kelly: I’m in the middle

Me: okay ....

Kelly: how did your boyfriend respond?

Me: *again she doesn’t know that my boyfriend is actually my husband* he was happy , emotional because he wants a son one day but accepts my decision and understands.

Kelly: okay...now that you know that this little relationship that you have with your boyfriend, now you guys can take things to the next level since you can see he’s serious after knowing that your pregnant—you guys can get a apartment ect and plan and...

Janet interrupts our conversation and tried to get a understanding of where Kelly was coming from in frustration and Kelly got frustrated and went back to her room.

When the fetus passed through me , I felt everything pass through me . I mean to be graphic I was walking with blood footprints on the floor to the bathroom. And messed up my carpet...had a fever and everything...cried so hard...and all she did was walk pass me...not even checking in with me when we were alone at home for some time...luckily everything passed through me even though I had to get extra tests and blood draws from the doctors...it was a dark scary experience and still till this day she walks pass me...even when I broke the news to her that’s it was in my tube....

I came to realization from this experience that ...i know exactly who is my friend and you see people’s true colors as well and I just can’t wait until my lease is up, I’m super excited for a new beginning....

So what do you think of Kelly ? Was her response okay ?