sad, pregnant, and lonely..

31 weeks pregnant and really setting in how much I dislike my partner... I honestly feel like I have fallen out of love with him this pregnancy and I do NOT think it’s hormones. It’s like HE is a completely different person he acts so disconnected all he cares about is Xbox. Yes I know it’s good to play but he becomes even ANGRIER when he plays and occasionally takes it out on me. He yells constantly and any little thing sets him off. I feel like I’m walking on egg shells.

I asked him to help me in our soon to be nursery sense he got off work at 11 am today and therefore only worked two hours.. he spent about four hours playing Xbox when he got home and he never wants to do anything on weekends because those are according to him his only free days therefore he should do absolutely NOTHING. He CONSTANTLY belittles me because he has a job and I currently do not because it was getting to hard to work due to health issues in my pregnancy. So because he works he does NOT clean or do ANYTHING in the house or help with anything involving our baby who will be here VERY soon.

Anyways.. what set me off to rant is I asked him to help in the nursery because 90% (actually more like 98%) and he REFUSES to help because he doesn’t want too.. uh yeah I don’t want to either but it has to get done?? I’m so tired of this... I don’t know what to do I feel like I’m all alone and like I don’t know him.. if leaving was easy trust me I would please don’t comment that.

Sorry this is long and all over the place I just needed to really say some of that..