I started a new job today, and I already can’t take it. It’s not even the work, but everyday I’m still reminded of my sexual assault back in November and it’s haunting me. During training they asked us to say something if we have been the subject of a crime or committed a crime due to security and privacy reasons (it’s a job dealing with confidential health info, so they want to be aware) and I just wanted to start crying. I can’t just tell my new boss I was raped. I made it through the day and I will keep going, but I’m just scared something will set me over the edge. I haven’t worked since the assault. Every male face I see somehow reminds me of the worst person I’ve ever met. I want to get therapy but I have to have money first. I’m 20 so my mom doesn’t help with any expenses plus I had to pay rent with the money I had saved. I just want to die. Everything is so hard.