I dont know how to tell anyone what he did


Two years ago I was raped by my boyfriend. We now have a 6 month old baby girl. Him and I had a great night together drinking and I passed out in our apartment. He did not. I woke up the next morning to him showing me a video he made of him touching me sexually while I was in the shower passed out with him, then he moved me to our bed and started to have sex with me (sort of aggressively). He put inanimate objects in me and it was bad. When he showed me, I think he was wanting to be straight forward but it was not remorseful. We just never talked about it again....

Well I found out he still has the videos on his phone so everything has resurfaced for me and I'm not ok.

I cant tell anyone because I let too much time pass 😭 I dont want to stay with him anymore, but can I use this as a reason?? I have no one to talk to.