Late period

So my periods a 2 days late. I took a test this morning and it was negative, now I’m starting to feel signs of my period coming but I really can’t help but be sad about a negative test.

I’m really confused with my feelings. At first I was freaking out and felt this guilt towards my daughter, like if I was pregnant she would feel I wouldn’t love her anymore, than i felt this feeling of how can I love another baby when I love my daughter so much. I felt like I was hoping the test would be negative but when I actually got the negative all I wanted to do was cry because maybe I do want another baby and maybe I was already starting to daydream about another and enjoying pregnancy again. I sound so crazy. My husband and I aren’t trying we just had a slip up which made me want to test.

Am I the only crazy one?