Pregnancy loss...

Went to have my 12 week scan today! I was meant to be 12+6 and I was so excited! I saw my baby at 6+1, it’s little heart beating away and I couldn’t wait to see how much my little bean had grown.. but instead we were met with the most heart breaking news. Beans heart stopped at 9+4, but everything else has continued to grow. The sad, my bump, everything. I’ve got surgery Friday as my body hasn’t dealt with it naturally and I’m so so worried, upset, broke... once this happens, it’s done for real and thatll be it. I’m trying to put on a brave face but I just want to curl in a ball and cry 😭