I’m soooo anxious and depressed. I’m 9w pregnant and have depression and anxiety. I’ve always known my SO had issues with it too, but he refuses to get help for the past 2.5yrs. Well, the day before yesterday he tried committing suicide😭😭😭😭😭😭💔💔💔 I immediately called 911 when I heard his 6’4” 200lb ass, fall and hit the tile floor in our bathroom!!! It made a loud bang. I ran into the bathroom and saw him face down, lying on the bathroom floor, passed out. He was on a hunger strike and had taken a bunch of pills because he said he wanted to die. It wasn’t until the police and ambulance got here that I found out why he was doing that. He said, “I realized I don’t want anymore kids and my girl is pregnant”. “I didn’t want my first kid, let alone another one!!😭😭😭😭 His first may not have been conceived on purpose but he is a WONDERFUL daddy!!! I bawled my eyes out while trying to let the police/medics do their jobs and pick him up outta bed and take him out to the ambulance. He tried telling them, over and over, to leave him alone, but of course when you try to commit suicide, they’re not going to leave you alone. He told them he’d fight them but when he lifted his head to look at them and saw there was 3 big officers and 2 paramedics, he quickly changed his mind. I am 9w pregnant and already very high risk. All this stress is sooo dangerous for the pregnancy, me and the bambino. We were at the hospital for 10hrs and I was sitting in those horribly hard hospital chairs, that whole time. I started having severe cramping (I was sooo stressed and sad and mad, frustrated and hurt). My SO sent me home later that night and so I left. I already knew by then that he was going to be taken an hour away to a psych hospital. When I got home I called my doc and he told me to lay in bed and only get up to go potty and get something to eat. To put my feet up on a pillow and stay in bed until today when we will speak again sometime this morning. Thankfully the cramps are pretty much gone. I have light ones every now and then, but today is much better!!! I’m wondering though if I should make the hour drive to see him today and stay to visit the whole hour and a half. I have to do what’s best for the bambino and me, so I don’t want to do anything that could potentially harm baby. I’m hoping my doc gives me the ok today to go visit him. I’m still sooooo stressed and my heart is racing outta my chest, and has been for the 2 days since this happened. I’m soooo scared and nervous that all this Commotion and stress is going to negatively impact the baby. My heart racing like this and all the stress cannot be good for the baby!!! I just don’t know what to do. I don’t understand why my SO would do this. I mean, I know why he said he did it, but I am just in shock...complete and utter shock!!!!! I can’t believe I almost lost my man. This is just so shocking and so unbelievable!!!! The doctors at the psych hospital put him on medicine yesterday. I hope it works so very very much. I want him to feel really good instead of really bad all the time and I need him to be really good for the baby and his son that he already has. I love him soooo much!!!! Thanks for letting me vent everyone. I just feel like I’m losing my mind right now and very very worried about my man and very scared what all this is going to do to my bambino!!!!!!!!! This is one hell of a scary situation!!!!!!!