Baby Fever at its Finest

Okay, so out of no where I’m suddenly getting baby fever again! A couple years back I had an abortion because my parents thought I was too young for a baby. 19 year old, freshman me, going to college out of state. For a long time after I longed to be a mom because of my heartbreak. I almost felt like I was trying to have a baby. Then I started to realize I actually am not ready. I want to finish college, get a steady job, & just be prepared. I was finally over having a baby ! After 2 years of “healing”... damn. PSYCH out of no where these past two days I’ve been having major baby fever. Straight up, I could shout to the universe, “I WANT A BABY NOW”, but no I won’t. It already knows that. 🤦🏽‍♀️ Baby fever, & it’s a gut feeling more than anything! I decided I deserved something to drink to get me off of this feen for a baby rn, but the damn alcohol is making it worse. It’s making me type this out 😂. All I got to say is, being drunk definitely brings out what you deeply desire. Sorry for the rant. I got 1 1/2 left of college, can’t get pregnant just yet. My drunk self almost decided I could & almost FORCED myself to forget to take my pill.... well there it is rant over. Maybe I’ll be all good in the morning & this baby fever will be done with. Yah right... 🙃