Rough week

I’m having a rough week. Wednesday will be my due date for my first miscarriage with my twins, yesterday was 4 weeks from my third miscarriage this year, and I feel like af is coming. 🥺😢😢 I was hoping she wouldn’t come at all since I got the ok to try right away. I keep breaking down I just want my babies back. I just want to be pregnant again. This is soooo hard.. 😢😢😭😭😭😭😭😭