I feel like I'm being blamed for this.

My baby hasnt slept well in months. When she was smaller she would fall asleep anywhere and if I Struggled to get her to sleep in the house, I'd take her for a walk and she'd fall asleep almost instantly. This isn't the case anymore. I spend hours trying to get my baby to sleep, sometimes she'll fall asleep then when I transfer her to her cot she realises and starts crying. Then I'm back to square one again, I'll keep trying and end up asleep with her next to me. My SO will just climb into bed, toss and turn + sometimes complain about being uncomfortable. He's never once attempted to pick her up and put her in her cot. The few times he's put her to bed, he'll just lay on the bed with her then hand her to me(this is the same for nap time).

This is a everyday thing. I never and I mean never get time to myself, sometimes I get to the point where I'm like "wait, did I even wash my face? ''. Anyway yesterday he complained about it getting ridiculous now, I didn't even say anything back. I am uncomfortable and tired every night, I wake up with our daughter maybe 5-10 times a night. It is not fun for me, I'm tired myself and happen to fall asleep after many attempts. Sorry we don't have a baby that falls asleep instantly but I'm trying my best.