My best friend passed away a little over two years ago, she passed away when we were 13 & it was just a month until her 14th birthday. Tomorrow (Monday) is her sweet 16 and I'm devastated. These past two years have been so hard on everyone that knew her bc she was the most amazing person you have have ever met. I'm not ready for tomorrow bc ik it's gonna hit different once the day comes. I haven't been myself this whole past week bc my other friend just had her 16th and that is what she should be doing this coming up week. Friday night (homecoming) I had to pass flyers out to sport parents so they could buy the photos we take as yearbook students, and my friends older bother is a football player. I haven't spoken to her parents since the memorial service but I had to give them the flyer so I went ahead and walked up to her parents and told them what the flyer was for and I handed it to her dad while her mom stood with her mouth open looking at me. I was shaking beyond belief. They said thank you for the paper and said something about Facebook and we said goodbye and we both turned around. I didn't even take a complete step before I was crying. It was the hardest thing I've ever brought my self to do. I walked back to where I had my stuff sitting and I just fell to my knees (my stuff was just right off the field where I had the conversation) and cried. I have been keeping my self busy trying not to think about it, but ik tomorrow is gonna be so hard not being able to be with my BFF for her sweet 16. Please go and let your BFF know how much they mean to you and how much you love them. Party with them at every chance you get. I would love to have one last conversation with her just to let her know how much I love & care about her.