Am I wrong?

I’ve been having a tough time with life in general lately.. school is super stressful I’m in my last pre requisite before the nursing program and applied like most do and got denied.. I applied for a job I have experience in and got denied... I’ve been in this state for a year and a half. I haven’t had a job since I moved here and it’s getting to me. I’m not used to not providing for myself. It’s driving me nuts. I’m my grandmothers caregiver so between my uncle and my boyfriend they make sure I have everything I need but I can’t just go out because I want to do so and get my nails done or something for me. My boyfriends been taking it personally because I’ve been upset and what not and it has nothing to do with him I’m just in a mood when I feel like a failure to my family. He’s got his college degree etc and his family is well off and everyone has a great education I come from a piss poor family with little tonno education I’m the only one who decided to try and make something of myself.. I’ve told him to not take it personally etc but he comes out to tell me about how bad he got with alcohol last year a few months before we met. I figured he had a bad run in because he doesn’t drink at all and said he just got tired of it he was past that point in his life. I just feel weird like I knew it was probably that but he never told me until now. 7months into our relationship when we are finally about to decide on moving in together. I feel so weird about being around him now what else could he hide.. am I wrong?