Pop Out Season... w/ my ex?!!

Okay so hear me out. I was engaged to this man July 2018 and I broke the engagement 2 months later because he showed his true colors and I felt like I deserved better. He begged and begged for a second chance that he would change but my pride was too strong and I told him no. 2 months later I saw him at the club with another girl and my blood literally boiled, I felt so salty and jealous and I wanted to confront him but I had no right to.. in that moment I realized I still loved him but I just had to keep going, life goes on right?

Time passed and I kid you not, this man was always in the back of my mind. I would meet guys all the time but no one compared to him. I was completely in love with him and I feel like no guy ever is going to make me feel what he made me felt..

About 8 months later he comes back in my life by getting his brother to message me, said it was very important that I needed to call him.

And Guess what? I called and since that day it’s been a rollercoaster of emotions. I miss him but then my pride is like Girl No you can do so much better but then my heart is like wtf how if I love him. And it’s been like that for months.

He tells me he can’t forget me either and that he wishes things can work out between us. Begs me so much, cries, everything.

So I finally decided I’m going to give it a try, it was great the first day but now he’s acting distant. He doesn’t seem/sound like the guy begging to get back with me anymore.

Now it feels like IM begging him, you know? I honestly thought I was going to get the same, mutual energy from him and he tells me we should “take it slow”.

I agree 100% but he’s the type that if I show little to no interest, he thinks I’m playing him or just wasting our time.

And if I show a lot he makes me feel like it’s just me trying you know ? THEN tells me to take things slow so it’s like what do I do ????

Am I dumb for doing this? Should I just chill and let time do it’s thing?

I really miss him and I want to rebuild what we once had.

Please someone tell me how to take things slow with someone you have so much history with.

How can I not seem like I’m just going to play him.. how can I show him I want him but not in excess?