NO SEX DRIVE

I stay up at night thinking about this. I honestly could not think about sex in a sexy way. The thought of me giving my husband a blowjob disgusts me at this point. I don’t know what’s wrong with me! I could not put myself in the mood at all! I even told my husband to just fuck me whenever he wants because I couldn’t get myself in the mood but his sweet little ass refuses because he wants me to enjoy it. I don’t know what to do at this point. I’m EBF which explains the low sex drive but STILL. I need my relationship back!!! I honestly would do anything at this point to get back in the game. Its been 5 months since I had my first baby, I’ve been extremely stressed to the point where I start having panic attacks out of the blue. I love my baby so much, i take care of her 24/7 and I just don’t know how to relax.

I love my husband so much and I want to please him. It breaks my heart seeing him suffer, he’s starting to become very emotional and stressed and I’m sure it’s because of the lack of sexual life. I couldn’t stop imagining him looking at other women.

Is there anything I could eat or take that is safe for breastfeeding moms to boost my sexual drive? I am desperate!