Biggest blessing of my life

When i found out I was pregnant just turning 21 I was so scared.. All I could think was what did I get my self in too?I'm not ready to settle down.. How in the world did I let myself miss that pill? But really what scared me the most was I knew it was time to be somebody my mom never was. And that scared the shit outta me. Growing up my mom and dad were there but not really there I was living with my aunt and uncle since I was 3 years old.. My parents would sometimes call sometimes come by when they were high or in a good mood. I never understood why they wanted that life more than me. So for me even as a little girl i had big expectations for myself when I became a mom. Cause I could never ever make my baby feel or put her threw what I went threw. And as it gets closer to her being here I'm counting down the days. I cant wait to love her, i can't wait to give her all the love and attention I have and she wants. I cant wait to hear that first cry and hold her in my arms and never let her go. Never let her feel like her mommy didnt want her and she wasn't good enough to straighten her mommy and daddy up. 33 more days and I get to meet the most important person that'll ever be in my life and i can't wait. I love you Stella more than you'll ever know already 💗