I'm actually not sad...

For the past year my husband and I have been TTC after we had an ectopic pregnancy with an emergency tube removal. Since then we've had no luck in the baby department. Since having the ectopic I would find myself getting very mad and jealous that other girls found out they were pregnant because I so badly wanted that to be me. My husband and I are now going through fertility. I actually have an appointment tomorrow morning to check if I ovulated yet.

Now, 2 days ago I found out that my friend is actually pregnant and for once I'm actually genuinely happy for her. I'm not jealous at all. I also found out today that my coworker is also pregnant and I'm happy for them. I never thought the day would come where I'd be happy for someone else being pregnant before me. I think I'm finally starting to heal and forget all the anger and resentment I had toward myself and my body. It will be our time sometime, just not this time 💜