Finally! 12 weeks arrived!! but..

Hitting your 12 week mark generally puts you at that 99.9% clear stage(unless you are high risk, which I am, but it is still a big hurdle with 3 MCs on my belt) but...

As the day approached I realized.. it’s not as a big deal yet as it should be.. because I don’t get another scan until just shy of week 14. I realized, I may have made it, but not to be blunt, How do I know we actually made it? I won’t go into details, but I had no physical signs with my other pregnancies that anything was wrong.

It never occurred to me that hitting this milestone actually isn’t a milestone until I know things are okay. What if things stopped being okay?

I do not want to drown myself in sad thoughts, I am still just taking it day by day hoping for the best at my next scan. I just feel weird.. I was going to publicly announce it, not just close people(I honestly lost interest of announcing it once I got it out of my system telling certain people, the urge fell, but it was still something I planned to do.. not even thinking about knowing if I already lost the baby or not...) More importantly than announcing, how do I know if we made it? It is not a milestone to me until I get next scan. Only about 9 more days, but it’s been on my mind for several days now.

It’s strange to me that this thought never occurred to me. It caught me off guard.

So, have any other women experienced that? Or men/dads. Were you so focused on getting through that first trimester that it went over your head that you don’t even know if you got through it at all because of dates of scans? It hit me like a wall and then just felt like the most uneventful time being in limbo. How did you feel?