I Need Help! First time mom and depressed

I have to be honest. This is not ideal. Never would I want this for myself or my child. I never wanted to have a baby with:

1. Someone I'm not in a relationship with because being on your own makes it hard.

2. Someone who doesn't want to be apart of whats going on. My child's father doesn't want the baby and was adamant about abortion and now I'm 9 weeks. He's been such an ass to me.

It has been stressful and me dwelling on it everyday makes me sick literally hospital visit and low bp.

I can't tell the last time I haven't cried myself to sleep or sleep straight through the night. I keep hoping that he would come around and that we could talk or just simply that he will just come to terms with OUR actions. That doesn't seems to be happening.

I am falling into depression more and more everyday and I honestly can't take it anymore.

I don't have the resources to take care of a child on my own. How will I clothe it, shelter it, feed it all on my own. Its hard but I am keen my baby. I'm trying not to stress but I wish I had his support.