i have a love and hate relationship with myself

i believe that i’m confident and i love myself for who i am because i don’t care what people think about me. but like everyone else, i do have insecurities and when people make fun of those insecurities it makes me so depressed. but i act like it doesn’t bother me. deep down, i don’t know if i love myself or just hate myself. my biggest insecurity is my face because i have a slight underbite so i have a big chin and i always get indirectly made fun of through jokes but i just act like i don’t know what’s happening. i’m getting braces soon and they’re gonna try to fix my jaw and if it doesn’t work...i’m turning 18 next year so i’ll get the surgeries i want done and stuff. idk what the point of this was i just wanted to vent ig