C section ( kinda long)

This is my third pregnancy, I have two boys. My last pregnancy was kinda stressful and my c section was even worse. I ended up hyperventilating, feeling like I was going to pass out. They ended up giving me medicine for it and I ended up calming down but still before that it was the worse. Ik why did I decide to have another baby but it was worth it in the end, even though my LO ended up in the nicu for 5 days. Beside that I decided to have another for many reasons , but I am so scared of another c section. Is there any mamas feeling the same way? I always get teary eyes when I talk about the whole c section situation and the nicu stay. How many c section have u had ? & are you feeling the same way? Scared ? Thanks!