Feeling down-GD

Can’t help but feel like giving up.

I was diagnosed with GD early at round 10/11w.

Well now that I’m further along I’m having so much trouble bringing my fasting numbers down. I was given metformin and now on insulin shots and unless I have them go down below 98 I have to up by 4 units every 2 days.

Last night on our way home from Monster Jam my hubby stopped to get my son something to eat and I decided not to eat anything because I was afraid of my sugar levels to get high and/or to wake up with high fasting numbers.

Idk after he bought the food Idk what happened I just started to cry bc I felt like I hadn’t eaten in so long. And then I got overwhelmed and started thinking about why I couldn’t eat and about what the diabetes consultant told me. She always reminds me about having a stillborn if I don’t take care of my diabetes. But I am trying so hard!!!

I check my sugars after meals and every chance I get when I am feeling sick.

I am just so scared and overwhelmed and don’t know what to do anymore.

Every time I meet with her she makes me feel like i am a bad mother. And I just can’t handle it anymore.

When I think I’m doing good she shits me down and says no you’re not you need to do better! 😥

I’m not sure if I’m able to go to a different person since she is in the same office of my MFM dr.

Ugh I just need some help 😩