Me and partner secretly ttc

***Sorry for the long post****

So we had our daughter 10 months ago and this is our first month of ttc number 2 and currently in the 2 week wait period of or cycle.. Today I met up with a couple of friends who were asking about baby number 2 and when we were gunna go again and because we don't want to feel the pressure of friends and family I said that we were not even trying yet and that we were not ready and now I feel super guilty and like I have jinxed everything for this month... We are ready and are trying but we had to reveal our last pregnancy at 4 weeks due to me working in a high risk job and having to tell work and then family as it didn't feel right work knowing before them and this time round while I'm still on mat teave we were hoping to catch and be able to keep it a secret so it was just for us for a bit but now I feel so bad that I have said were not ready 😭😭😭