Depression/Anxiety

Let’s talk about the thing people DON’T want to talk about... postpartum...

I have a severe history of depression and anxiety. I had many different meds and don’t therapy sessions, etc. When I had my first, I had PPD really bad. I had to stop breastfeeding just so I could take the load of medications that I needed, and they did help!

Now, I’m 35 weeks with my second, and I have felt the wrath of anxiety and depression during my entire pregnancy. I had to quit my meds cold turkey when I got pregnant, and my head has been horrible since. I’m only a few weeks out from him being here and I already dread the thought of the PPD again. Will it be worse? Better? (Doubtful) I’m exclusively pumping this time, but I still won’t be able to take the medications that I need at the dosage I need while I’m pumping.

I’ll be honest. I’m scared. Anyone else nervous about this too?