Hey Im Saffron and lets call my crush D-Ron. So D-Ron is 17 and I am 15 years old. I have had a crush on him for months and he knows this. We only see each other at school. And we don’t have enough time at school, so I was to hang with him outside of school, but he doesn’t really text me. He is like 2 different people at school and outside of school. We talk a lot at school and we play around like a lot. But outside of school we really barely text. On Friday (October 25, 2019) at the end of school we were playing more than ever and he wrapped his arm under my leg and pulled it up. It felt soo good😭😭😝😝😝. And then he took my pencil and I was snatching it from him and I kept pulling him back to me and pulling him close and touching on him trying to get it back. And then he was behind me. And I had to turn around and still try to get it. Mind you he is very tall so sadly I can’t put my butt on his 😳.🤣🤣 He also is very very strong 🤪, so i have trouble getting my pencil back and I end up getting pushed onto the table. And this guy from class was trying to plug his computer back into the computer cart and we are doing all of this infront of it, so he is like “woaah. Okay. So can you just plug my computer up” and he starts laughing. He promotes us being together because as D-Ron and I walk down the halls and talk he always looks at both of us and smiles. I wish we can be together. D-Ron says he doesn’t date people younger than him and that 2 years is a lot. 🙄🙄🙄 Boy I can be more mature than any girls that you would probably ever talk to. Im a young fun, but when it comes time I can be very mature. Anyways, I am weird and he calls me strange and he says he likes weird. *Out of Context- He just texted meee!! ☺️☺️😝😝 I love seeing his name ( I am gonna make him wait though. 🤣🤣🙄🙄Its hard sometimes/always)* Anyways, He is inviting people to go paint-balling with him. Y’all obviously know ya girl had to say “meee” 🤣🤣. So let me tell you want D-Ron looks like. He is Dark Skin, he has long ass curly hair with a all around fade. He isn’t the sexiest person on earth, but neither am I. He has Chinese looking eyes, he has a deep voice. He is funny as fuck🤣🤣. And he makes me feel things, like special just by looking at me. And he is very forgetful and sometimes slow as hell, but i want him to be my slow ass boyfriend.🤣🤣🤦🏽‍♀️🤦🏽‍♀️ Im falling like fuck for this guy. Anyways, before he told me that he doesn’t date people younger than him, he told me that he wasn’t ready to date and I asked him whenever he was ready if I could be the first person he goes to and he said yeah. And when I told him that he said that, he was like “Oh shit. I did say that. Ight well im finna put my headphones back in, cuz ion know what to say to that.” Bro. Thats fucked up. And I hate how he don’t really be caring for my ass. There was this time when I called him and I was like im going through sum and he really wasn’t helping or caring. He was chuckling. Like man, really. And its crazzyy. Cuz so many guys I could get with, but I keep wanting him the most. Like i would keep going back to his ass. Drop every hoe i got and go back to his ass. 🤡🤡🤡🤡🤡. “Clown Girl! Clown Girl! Yeah that’s meee!!”🤦🏽‍♀️🤦🏽‍♀️Fml! But Im tired of being single. I really just want a boyfriend. Someone to cuddle with, hang out with. Rely on texting them. Meet up with them and do sum nasty shit🤪. Cuz im a freak like fuck. Just Someone who I can trust. Like my heart really fucked up rn. Like i was just in an abusive relationship. And its fucked up. I wish i could ho back to girls and be with them, but i need a boy to put me in my place and I want some 🍆. Oh and There was sometimes where I was Touching up on D-Ron in class. And I was slick with dat shit. He Ain’t know i was like that. And I accidentally sent him a video of my ass. Not necessarily twerking, but i was sending to my friend, cause she kept sending me videos of her skinny ass and her ass too, so i was like i can be a tease too. And their names were right next to each other. And I told him not to look at it. And he did it anyway. 🙄🙄 I was like whyyy and his specific text back was “🤦🏾‍♂️🤦🏾‍♂️🤷🏾‍♂️” 🤦🏽‍♀️🤦🏽‍♀️🙄🙄. FML!!! And yeah I need help. And i know some of yall are gonna say “Stay single girl. You dont need a boy” i know i dont need one, but i like am going crazy like i really really want one. I am sorry its super long, but i tried to give u as much detail. So please help me. What do i do? How should I feel? And give me an outside perspective on this cause I am too deep into this and deep.