First IVF

Currently in my first IVF cycle (hopefully only), we have male factor and will be doing ICSI. Retrieval date is this Friday 11/1. So excited but also so nervous that I go through all of this and none survive. This whole thing has been a roller coaster with an original plan to start in October but had a cyst on my ovary for the first time ever and had to cancel and start again in 2 weeks. The meds have all been okay on 250 gonal f, 150 menopur, 20 units twice daily of lupron, with my baseline scan there were 19 eggs but all measuring small, came back in two days later and was told that they are still not where they should be and if when I come back in 3 days they are not bigger they will have to cancel. Luckily they said my labs were promising that they think they would catch up and they did. Came back and they had all grown!! Had my last ultrasound today and still had a ton of eggs ranging in sizes 10-19mm. They said they wanted to give them one more day to grow and I will trigger tomorrow night and retrieval on Friday. I am literally a ball of nerves. I feel like all my eggs are in one basket literally because this is so expensive. I’ve been trying to focus on other things this whole time but now that it’s coming up I AM TERRIFIED! Anyway, I would appreciate all the prayers and baby dust!