Baby blues or PPD/PPA? Long please read

Hi all. I’m a FTM and am not sure what the difference between baby blues and postpartum anxiety and depression is. I’m 6 weeks postpartum and when I first had my daughter of course life was overwhelming; we just had a baby and our lives were changing. At first I was crying when being overwhelmed with the responsibility of being a new mom so I stopped breastfeeding about 1 week in. When the hormones associated with that were gone I felt better. Now I’m feeling extremely anxious whenever my baby is around. Nighttimes i dread and stress out about if I’m gonna sleep is she gonna sleep? Sometimes I don’t want to watch her and feel it would be best if my mom or MIL watched her. On days where she cries and fussed I get no break and literally don’t want to be in our house. I feel best when I’m away from our house and at my parents. I feel guilty and feel like a terrible mom when I have to ask for help midweek when I feel like I’m going to breakdown and not make it. I’m embarrassed that I can’t even seem to calm or take care of my baby 7 days a week without asking for help. Any advice moms? Should I seek medical help?