Emergency

I’m 5 weeks, 5 days pregnant. Okay so 2 nights ago I was trying to sleep but I was cramping on my left side quite a bit and couldn’t sleep. The next day I was bleeding, not period level but also not really just spotting. I didn’t have insurance so I couldn’t go to the doctor and our health department doesn’t open until Tuesday’s and Wednesday’s. Yesterday I decided to go to the next towns health department because I was still bleeding and cramping. They confirmed my pregnancy, got me set up with temporary Medicaid, and she suggested I go to the ER for the bleeding. My fiancé and I head over the NEXT town from there because that’s the closest emergency room, we don’t have one in our town. They admit me, do an regular ultrasound and a vaginal ultrasound and she seemed concerned about my left ovary and called someone in to look at it with her. She never said if she saw the baby, and at this point I don’t feel very pregnant so I haven’t 100% believed I’m actually pregnant, I asked if she saw the baby and she showed me the little blob that’s my baby so I felt a lot better because it turns out I really am. We go back to the ER room and they come in and do a pelvic exam (ow) and give me an IV so they can draw blood. The first nurse that tried to give the IV to me sat there and dug around in my arm for 10 minutes before she called another nurse in who got it in my other arm in less than a minute. I was so frustrated. My fiancé thinks I’m just overreacting the whole time and that we shouldn’t even be here, and we both had to work in a couple of hours. Oh and they messed up the pelvic exam THREE times so I had to deal with that horrible uncomfortable pain 3 separate times. The doctor comes in and he says he’ll talk to us about everything once They get all the results back, so we sit there for another hour waiting. At this point I’m beyond ready to go home and I’m thinking at this point that I wasted our time because there’s nothing wrong with me. Finally the doctor comes back in and he says I have a UTI and bacterial vaginosis. He also goes on to say that I have a huge cyst on my left ovary that’s so big they can’t even see my ovary. And he is worried my left one has ovary torsion, which is where the ovary is twisted and it’s losing blood, which means i could lose that ovary and my baby along with it. He called the on call doctor who specializes with that and the doctor says no it’s just a regular cyst that comes with pregnancy, OVER THE PHONE, he has no clue what is actually happening so the doctor I have refers me to a specialist and says to call TODAY and get the earliest available appointment with him. I’m told my pregnancy is extremely high risk and chances are I won’t be able to get pregnant again. I can’t do any strenuous activity, I can’t have sex I can’t do anything. He prescribed me with some pretty strong antibiotics and after I left before I got to work I dropped the prescription off with the pharmacy. When I get my medications, it’s capsules and that’s the one thing I can’t swallow. I’ve never been able to swallow capsules they float and every time I try and take it I choke. Like start panicking choke and then it’s just a bad deal. So I’m at work and I was like I’ll just put the powder in a soda and take it that way. WRONG. This stuff is the nastiest stuff ever. And I immediately start throwing up as I’m running to the bathroom with my hands clamped over my mouth trying to prevent it from coming out. I end up having puke all over myself, all over the floor, all over the bathroom. And ITS STILL COMING. I’m throwing up violently into the toilet. Which of course just made my stomach cramps worse. I finish throwing up and get everything cleaned up, I clean myself up the best I can but I had to sit at work for another 4 hours before I could go home and change clothes. It was horrifying. That night my fiancé gets home from work and is trying to get me to take my medicine and I can’t do it, literally tried for hours and I just can’t take it. I told him if I throw up anymore especially like I did it could cause this cyst to rupture and then we’ll really be in trouble. He’s yelling at me saying that throwing up is all in my head and that I HAVE To take this medicine, and if I don’t then my baby is going to die. I don’t know what to do 😭😭 I called as soon as we left the hospital and made an appointment with the specialist on Monday, I told my fiancé I would talk to him and see if he’ll prescribe me something I can actually take. But in the meantime I feel like if I don’t take these it’s going to kill my baby and I’m so stressed out. 😭😭😭