Husband had a rough day

So.

I'm not sure what happened but somehow my husband was in an ok mood until the (3) kids came home from school. Before they came home he was watching tv and expecting me to do thesame, if I wasn't watching I was doing chores.

After they got home I don't know what happened.. I was helping them with their schoolwork and he was getting a shower before work as he works nights, when he came back from the shower he was in a very bad mood and he kind of broke down like.. You know how I am with the kids, why would you even have another? Start all over again?!

So I'm confused and hurt and scared.

Like.. I always wanted to be a mom and I never thought I'd had to choose between being a mom or having the love of my life. We have been ttc for 2 years.. Because I told him some trivia my doctor told me about my anticonception.. He came to me to go for one..

So here we are 2 years later...

And he puts me on that stand saying he really doesn't want a kid with me.

I want a husband who would be as happy as I am when I tell him I'm pregnant..

But maybe when it comes to this, I might need to choose between him or being a mom..

I'm not sure if I can 😭😭😭

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UPDATE:

to be absolutely clear, his 3 kids are from a previous marriage. I take care of them 90% of the time when they are with us because he often sleeps as he works nights.

So it hurts me how hard I take good care of his kids but don't get to be a mom myself.

He's been going through fases of wanting it and not wanting it.. And trough it all we're still ttc.

I'm scared he won't be happy at all when I finally do get pregnant.

I'm even more scared he might not love our baby 😭