Heart break

Past few days have consisted of me breaking down at the end of the night. Trying to drink the pain away(didnt work) trying to sleep the pain away and then not being able to sleep. I'm so exhausted and my chest is so heavy. It's so hard not breaking down in the middle of the day. How do you numb this pain. I have to leave for work in 30 mins and haven't even gotten out of bed.