29 years old -6 months and still heartbroken


I am not even 30, my husband is 5 years older than me (34), and I blame myself every month when I get my period. This month I was 4 days late and cried when it started. I blame myself because for the last 2 years everyone would ask and I would say “we are waiting until after the wedding and the house” followed by the “yes we are married but we are waiting till we have a home that can accommodate.” We moved into our new home in May and I immediately went off my oral contraceptives after my next cycle and now here we are 6 months later. I am kicking myself for not trying sooner and wanting to cry every time my cycle starts. Help please! I feel like I am losing my mind!