I don’t know what to do anymore

Ashley • Trying to conceive my first child 👶🏾 before am 30

I am 27 and childless but I always wanted to be a mom I am recently single and dealing with a chronic illness that makes pregnancy kind of dangerous once am in my 30’s. Idk what to do anymore I just got out of a 6/7 year relationship and not even the smallest possibility of having a child ever happened. Everyone around me is having a child or on their second child I just feel like my time will never ever come. I know everything is in god timing but it seems impossible to find a new boyfriend and have a child in the small amount of time I have 😭😭😭it’s beyond heartbreaking to me to reach 30 and no child it’s even more devastating to me to be the one childless female in my family. Where am from we don’t have sperm banks or a sensible adoption system besides I am capable of having a child biologically so why adopt? Sigh I don’t know what to do now I don’t even know a male to ask for sperm or nothing