Need to Rant

Due date was today. I’m tired. My body hurts. Lightning crotch and irregular contractions have been my enemy. Had my bloody show on Sunday. I’m still only 60% effaced and 1 cm dilated. I’ve tried sex, walking miles. Doing steps. Yoga ball in 15-30 increments. I don’t know what else to do and just so uncomfortable and annoyed. Everyday I wake up and upset all day because I’m in pain but baby girl just won’t come. I wanted her to come on her own and have a pure natural labor/delivery but I’m set to be induced on the 26th. Just beyond frustrated and feel like crying and doing nothing. Everything’s all packed and in my car and I have nothing left to do to prepare. I haven’t been at work for over a week now and my pay for maternity leave doesn’t start until my baby is born so now we are low on money (boyfriend doesn’t work due to personal issues). I’d rather be at work since I’m naturally a busy body and it’s killing me doing nothing and just sitting around waiting. Just feel so defeated.