Last baby

I had my 3rd and final boy on the 15th and im just so so sad that ill never be pregnant again and I'll never get to experience this again. All of this is my last 1st time with him. Im soaking it all in but it still hurts. His birth was very traumatic for both me and my SO and he doesn't want to put me through that again. I know ill feel this way even if we had 1 or 2 more. I just love being pregnant and the whole birthing experience 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭