My husband was going to get a blow job from someone else

My husband would go to the bathroom for like 40 minutes and always take his phone with him. He would delete his history, all that. I confronted him and asked him why he deleted it and said “ I delete it everyday “ trust me I’m not hiding anything. I just said I’m not stupid, you don’t delete it everyday cause sometimes it’s there. Why would someone do it with nothing to hide ? So I proceed to chekc his phone everyday. I saw a text saying “Ashley, are you available ? BBJ?” I google bbj and it says bare blow job. I woke him up and he acted dumb and said idk it wasn’t me.. 😂😂 I leave and get dressed to go for a walk and he grabs me and hugs me and says sorry all that. I texted the number and it ended up being some bot. But I know heshad a history of being on this site to meet up with random people to have sex with. Who’s to say if it was a real person who answered he would’ve done it ? I can’t trust him or get over it. Now he says I’m “unloving” and “bitter” when I get upset or cry he yells at me to get over it. Literally his words. How do I keep myself from not looking soemwhere else for love? He will literally scream and call me asshole, dickhead. With our son in his arms. Am I over reacting ? I feel so unloved from him. If I question him on why is phone is always hidden away somewhere he says to just get over it already.